I know this sounds naive, it's not like I have no experience whatsoever, I did 2 years of Kyokushin Karate when I was a teen, full contact gloves off Kyokushin in Peshawar city, it was extremely brutal our sensei used to hit us sadistically to increase our tolerance for pain, we would break lots of shit, I still fondly remember the day that I graduated from hitting a cement filled punching bag to just hitting a tree, he used to run over us on his motorbike too (we would all lie down in a line with rock hard stomachs) when I think back to the form I was in back then I can hardly believe where I am now. My poor 6 pack has since drowned if it had a voice it would be singing that godawful Rahim Shah song ze pakey dubegama! mala lambo na razi!
I started smoking, got lazy, got speedy internet, had to study more, it's not like I lost interest I just got out of form and couldn't push myself to that level anymore so I quit. That was 5 odd years ago, I'm still a heavy smoker and I'm lazy as hell, I figure I could try giving up smoking again, this time I'll have a good reason to do so. I'm not making any promises though. I do love my nicotene, she's always been there for me when I needed her. I'll see where this goes, maybe this is just one of these stupid inklings that will disappear after I get back to my senses.
I married procrastination as soon as I became a college/university student. So far, there are no plans of divorce; we're too attached to each other.... but I am seriously considering it (divorce) lately, seeing the way procrastination treats me and everything. I'm just so distressed, you know?
ReplyDeleteSo you're not alone!! It's just, I'm finally slowly learning to get things done a few hours before they're done :D Big yay!!! It means less Facebook, less blogging, less Twitter, less outing time, less time with Kashmala, less time fantasizing about marrying a rich man and having cooks and cleaners and make-up artists and nannies and living happily ever after, etc., etc. But the feeling of getting something done a little before it's due is SO amazing!
Plus, it all started when a favorite professor of mine (who's also my adviser, my potential dissertation adviser) emailed me to remind me I hadn't submitted an assignment that had been due the night before! Burning with humiliation and disappointment in myself and feeling pathetic, I swore never to experience that feeling again .. and so I started working so hard and got so much done last weekend! I was so proud. I mean, I feel like I'm cheating myself of the really excellent education I'm blessed with, y'know?
k, you get the point, yeah? Quit smoking and stop procrastinating and start doing things before they're due. It's that simple (#Ikid).
Handed everything in at last - I'd feel more relieved if i had less caffeine coursing through my system. Yeah getting things done on time is important - my finals are in month's time I need to stick to a strict regimen if i want to survive.
DeleteIs marrying a rich man really all its cut out to be? i didn't expect that from a feminist *tuts* kheir de - it's okay i guess we all have dreams that interfere with our intellectual pursuits. It's difficult to escape the brainwashing we've all grown up with - I can be as Marxist/socialist as I want but I'll still end up enjoying an expensive car
saba na I'm kicking myself into gear, my head still It hurts from all the caffeine.